A Letter to my Granny~
It's been 4 years since you left us. I miss you more than ever, there's never a day that goes by that you are not in my thoughts. Every project I work on there's something that brings you close enough to touch but too far to hug. I have a couple quilt projects but have great difficulty finding the inspiration knowing you're not here to help me quilt them. Spring is right around the corner, with each flowers beautiful face I think of you. Your birdbath remains in my garden, I wish you could see the birds that flock there. The box of pictures and mason jar of buttons offer me a whiff of you when I need to feel your presence...it's just not the same as having you here. Oh, I miss you so very much...
I have regrets...times when I should have stopped by your house to have lunch and didn't. We all wished there was more we could have done. I think Mom punishes herself too much.
This Christmas when Mom was sick and asked me to take a gift to your friend Virginia, I couldn't do it...in fact, I broke into sobs knowing she was in the same Nursing Home one room down from your old room. I know she understood why I couldn't do it...I just felt horrible that I couldn't go see YOUR best friend at Christmas.
You'd be so proud of the kids, can you believe my baby is 21?! I know you'd feel as I do with Chase having moved to Charlottesville, I miss him terribly...but rest assured he is doing very well. David has finally straightened out his life and now has a very stable, healthy relationship. He got his GED and is now enrolled in College courses. Julia has become a wonderful young woman, I've yet to hear anyone say anything bad about her...I think she has your heart.
I don't visit the cemetery as often as I should, but I know you're not there. We may have lost the most precious person in our lives/family...but Heaven gained a beautiful Angel.
I LOVE YOU Granny...
...there remains a hole in my heart that can never be filled.
My Granny was a very spiritual woman, I found this song that reminds me of her. She had SO many favorite hymns. I'm not sure Granny ever heard THIS song but it's a favorite of mine.