Tuesday, February 24, 2009

4 Years...

A Letter to my Granny~

Dear Granny,
It's been 4 years since you left us. I miss you more than ever, there's never a day that goes by that you are not in my thoughts. Every project I work on there's something that brings you close enough to touch but too far to hug. I have a couple quilt projects but have great difficulty finding the inspiration knowing you're not here to help me quilt them. Spring is right around the corner, with each flowers beautiful face I think of you. Your birdbath remains in my garden, I wish you could see the birds that flock there. The box of pictures and mason jar of buttons offer me a whiff of you when I need to feel your presence...it's just not the same as having you here. Oh, I miss you so very much...

I have regrets...times when I should have stopped by your house to have lunch and didn't. We all wished there was more we could have done. I think Mom punishes herself too much.

This Christmas when Mom was sick and asked me to take a gift to your friend Virginia, I couldn't do it...in fact, I broke into sobs knowing she was in the same Nursing Home one room down from your old room. I know she understood why I couldn't do it...I just felt horrible that I couldn't go see YOUR best friend at Christmas.

You'd be so proud of the kids, can you believe my baby is 21?! I know you'd feel as I do with Chase having moved to Charlottesville, I miss him terribly...but rest assured he is doing very well. David has finally straightened out his life and now has a very stable, healthy relationship. He got his GED and is now enrolled in College courses. Julia has become a wonderful young woman, I've yet to hear anyone say anything bad about her...I think she has your heart.

I don't visit the cemetery as often as I should, but I know you're not there. We may have lost the most precious person in our lives/family...but Heaven gained a beautiful Angel.

I LOVE YOU Granny...


...there remains a hole in my heart that can never be filled.

My Granny was a very spiritual woman, I found this song that reminds me of her. She had SO many favorite hymns. I'm not sure Granny ever heard THIS song but it's a favorite of mine.

10 comments:

Anita said...

I cried a few tears for you today, I know how you feel... we lost my Grandfather this past Sunday, headed in to the funeral today...
:(

momsue84 said...

Such a beautiful letter! Tears are welling up in my eyes. I adored by GM,too. She knows how you feel.

Aunt Kathy said...

There is NO love like the love of a Grandma (or Nana as mine was called)

Death leaves a heartache no one can heal

Love leaves memories no one can steal

One of my favorite quotes I heard in a movie this year.

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Pam! said...

What a beautiful letter ... and what a beautiful relationship you had with her.
I wish I had a relationship like yours with one of my Grandparents. It makes me sad that I missed out on that type of experience from my pre-teen years on.

Dianne said...

A beautiful letter and tribute to your 'Granny'..It's obvious she was 'one of a kind' and much loved..may your day be filled with those lovely memories. Hugs~

Becky said...

Sending you hugs! My grandma died 30 years ago (this September) and I still miss her!

I love Go Rest High. I first heard it just a few weeks after my dad died. It makes me think of him every time I hear it.

Kim Carroll said...

Robin,
This was one of Granny's favorite songs. Joe bought her Vince Gills cd with this on it. She played it for me one day. She was a great Grandmother. This was a wonderful post about Granny.

Channon said...

Tears... I'm sure Granny is proud of you and your children!

lilypily said...

Oh what a lovely letter Robin. Your Granny IS very proud of you. :)